Friday, August 26, 2011

The Best Teacher

Do you know the feeling, that when life hits you so hard, you just feel like bursting out crying bloody tears, just because. Whenever anything happens, it always seems like the worst thing thats ever happened to a human being. It's always ourselves that we see as having the worst of luck. Like God doesn't care nor love us anymore that He's giving us so many trials and tribulations in life, instead of bestowing us with heavenly bliss. However so, that isn't the case. Would we consider a lover who does not care about whatever the hell we do and just be there for the sake of being, or would it be better to have someone who gives us the gift of memories? I would say the latter is always better.


To what extent do we think the world revolves around just us, just me, that it would cause us to become so sensitive to the slightest human reaction? At what point in life do we start to realize that there's always something out there that's worst than what we are going through, there's always someone who is going through something so bad, that it's unimaginable for us to even think of, who somehow still manages to find contentment in the tiniest form of happiness. Why can't we? To me, the key, is sharing.


All the feelings we go through in life, the tears we shed in multiple events, whether it was the lost of a father, or a lover, or whether it was the best results in school we ever had, the first words or first steps our baby makes, those tears that flows out just because we feel our hearts were tightly squeezed by an imaginary clam, known as sincerity, those are what changes us..I've been blessed to have been born in this world, in this era, where there is a person who has the ability to actually teach so much that i could have never imagined learning, without actually going through the experience myself. OPRAH WINFREY. Her show has done so much for the sake of humanity that is has changed so many lives for the past 25 seasons.



Having lived 23 years of life, i'd say i totally agree with the saying, experience is always the best teacher. Through Oprah, I've experienced feelings that I'd never have in such a short life. I'm but a bud of rose yet to fully bloom as a flower in spring. Surviving the battle for sunlight is what i've learned after seeing how every other flower is tilting and growing towards where there isn't shade. To me, growing maturity means to wander into the world outside of the comfort zone, learning from the experience of not just ourselves, but also through others'. It doesn't have to involve physical wandering, it's the soul that needs the experience. Learning to adapt and survive, enjoying every moment of it along the way, that's life. The Oprah Show has allowed all this to happen, all in the comfort of a couch at home.



Oprah has triggered so many emotions, taught so many lessons, helped so many people, that I feel it has made life so much more meaningful for a whole lot of people. Spread the love, spread the experience, feel what others are feeling, make a stranger feel like family, make the world a healthier and more comfortable environment, be bold and care, for not just yourself, not just your family, but everyone around you, those are among the morals of The Oprah Show.


Why the sudden thought of writing this article? I had just finished watching the show, the farewell season with Nate Berkus graduating the show. I realized how throughout the years, how Nate has been a part of the show and changing all those lives. And seeing those crying faces, even crying myself, made me realize how Oprah has inspired a whole lot of people to bring joy to the world..Like Nate, the Cutie Pie, a lot of other people have been inspired to either just spread a little of their happiness or just to try to be happier themselves. Has anyone ever tried smiling to a perfect stranger? regardless of whether or not he or she smiles back, or thinks it's crazy, the feeling is remarkable. Fighting against your own pride is an achievement worth the time.



The tears of joy, and pain, that we see flowing from the eyes of a stranger, has the power of sincerity, which brings out the true feelings in our heart. Whenever they share their happiness, or sorrows, an imaginary bridge is formed, the burden they carry on their shoulders are spreaded out to those listening. And just like leaves containing the dews in the morning, that bends to pour of once its just to heavy a load, that burden they feel, fills our hearts and melts into tears, making the weight a little lighter for them to bear. Even if it is just a moment, it is surely a memorable one. And that moment of happiness, knowing that somewhere in the world, someone knows and cares, that will help them through whatever might come in the future. That is the true power of sharing.


Thank You Oprah, for everything you've spread, for all the true strength of human that you've helped us realize, for the experience of joy and sorrow we have shared, for being that special stranger who changed our lives, for making us join in emotions and maturing in heart, and for helping us realize the meaning of life. Thank you for all your efforts, and thak you for just being you and letting us have you in our lives. May you also be blessed with all that you have given.


Sunday, August 7, 2011

dream, wish, prayer

someone
who understands like an adult
who enjoys like a teenager
who plays like a child
who loves like a baby

someone
who isnt perfect, but willing to try
who's funny, but doesn't talk much
who doesn't just say, but shows

someone
just that one
till the day one dies

someone
that, i want

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Rahsia Hati


sesuatu telah terjadi

sesuatu yang tidak ku sangka

sesuatu yang buat aku mula memahami

sesuatu yang terjadi tanpa diduga


bila sekali terpaksa berjauhan

berenang jauh seberang lautan

berkepak tinggi disamping awan

dibawa angin pergi meninggalkan


tanpa dunia menyedari

air kering mgalir ke pipi

rindu sungguh kata hati

walau baru setapak pergi


tidak menoleh tidak peduli

resah gelisah dalam hati

tertanya tanya pada diri

mungkinkah dapat berjumpa lagi


sungguh hatiku pilu

sungguh aku sedih mengenang sendiri

sungguh berat untuk meninggalkan mu

sungguh aku tak mengerti mengapa aku jadi begini


tanpa ku sedari, hatiku merintih sepi, ingin kau aku miliki

tanpa ku sedari, aku mula mnyayangi, rindu mula bertamu dihati


















aku pergi, berbekal senyum mu di layar mimpi
kota ini menjadi saksi, walau diri mu tak ketahui



Saturday, February 20, 2010

Awakenings

A time comes in your life when you finally get it...When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through new eyes. This is your awakening.

You realize that it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world there aren't always fairytale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.

You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are... and that's OK. (They are entitled to their own views and opinions.) And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.

You stop bitching and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or didn't do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that it's not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself and in the process a sense of safety & security is born of self-reliance.

You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness. You realize that much of the way you view yourself, and the world around you, is as a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your psyche. And you begin to sift through all the crap you've been fed about how you should behave, how you should look and how much you should weigh and what you should wear and where you should shop and what you should drive how and where you should live and what you should do for a living who you should sleep, with who you should marry and what you should expect of a marriage, the importance of having and raising children or what you owe your parents.

You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are what you really stand for. You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with and in the process you learn to go with your instincts. You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive. And that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix. You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a by gone era but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life. You learn that you don't know everything, it's not your job to save the world and that you can't teach a pig to sing. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.

Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away. You learn not to project your needs or your feelings onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be, more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man on your arm or the child that bears your name. You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn that just as people grow and change so it is with love.... and you learn that you don't have the right to demand love on your terms... just to make you happy. And, you learn that alone does not mean lonely... And you look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10 and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and agonizing over how you "stack up."

You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs. You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK....and that it is your right to want things and to ask for the things that you want...and that sometimes it is necessary to make demands.

You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity and respect and you won't settle for less. And, you allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you to glorify you with his touch... and in the process you internalize the meaning of self-respect.

And you learn that your body really is your temple. And you begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water and taking more time to exercise. You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and fear. So you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.

You learn, that for the most part, in life you get what you believe you deserve... and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy. You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different than working toward making it happen.

More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone and that it's OK to risk asking for help.

You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time. FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms. And you learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people. On these occasions you learn not to personalize things. You learn that God isn't punishing you or failing to answer your prayers. It's just life happening.

And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state - the ego. You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.

You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about; a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower.

Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you to make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never ever to settle for less than your heart's desire. And you hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind. And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility. Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side you take a stand, you take a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Babe's Day Out!

Pada suatu hari yg bergelar semalam, aku outing lg...yalan2 cali makan! kena plak smalam ade fashion show, Mid Valley Megamall Fashian Week...penuh gile org, smpai kami g mkn kat Gardens...hehehe... =D huha sesaje aku nih skang, mentang2 dah habes exam, kang kuar result kang baru tau sedih...haha...anyway, smlm kuar ngn hani bani ngn tira tiri gak, enjoy kuar ngn dorang, gelak ktawa xsudah2! tujuan utama kuar tuh cume nak beli tuner ngn strape utk gitar aku tuh...alang2 dah kuar tuh beli skali buku chords, almaklumla baru nak blaja men gitar nih...gitar yg baru dapat mase 21st bday (22/2) dulu...skang nih jari aku sakit2 serta btukar merah, tp xpela...blaja kan, mestila takes time! i try my best! i just love the sound of the acoustic guitar...calming! so byk sket aktiviti cuti ku kan, blaja gitar, wat photoshoot, pegi gig, bace novel (english serta malay yg aku beli kemarin), xtermasuk lg tido, dgr lagu, chatting, gayut kat skype, blogging ape sume...haha...Alhamdulillah aku manage mencari aktiviti utk cuti ku ini... =)

Love the shape of the trees
so, back to the outing part, just nak mention sket la, aku buat kesimpulan yg semalam tuh ade "BABY'S DAY OUT"...wanna know y?? karne, everywhere we turn, mesti ade baby yg cute, biar makayah die xcute pn die msti cute...aku ngn tira sampai penat, asyik cakap "makaih, comelnye...", "waaaaaaaaa, bulatnye...tembamnyeee...", "alahai, adorable lil baby!"..sampai kan time nak balik tuh, tgh tunggu komuter kat mid, tv National Georaphic tuh iklankan dokumentari baby rite b4 i got on the tren...hahaha...cam best la, tp xleh nak amek pic, kbyakannye mak bpk sombong...nose in the air! xreti senyum lgsg! wats up with that? xbebudi bhase, budaya mane tah tuh! hih...bengang je aku! tp papepn, mmg comella anak2 mereka, ade sorang budak nih (kat bowling alley) begitu dedicated nak bowling, beliau usaha sungguh2 nak angkat bola, kesian die! so aku pn pegila amekkan bola 6 utk die, mgkn mak ddie xslalu bowling, so she doesnt know...comel sgt tgk die main, 1st time die baling, dia campak masuk dalam lane sbelah...hahahahaha...kami dah bantai gelak2 sebab bola tuh masuk time turn hani, she tried to throw another ball sbelom palang tuh turun (nak up markah la tuh...nmpk cam it wud hav been a brooklyn strike too...haha)...tp xsempat, palang turun just in time to stop the ball...hahaha...gile tbahak2 kami...klaka gile! last2 mak die mintak nak amek gmbr kami reramai...he was too shy, sampai i had to hug him just to make sure he doesnt run...haha...kena kepit! hahaha... =D

Cameraman bf baru ku nih
Bf baru kami!!
Suke baju die!
mase game last tuh aku cam concentrate gigile la, sbb lau markah kurang aku tension, kang kena tambah lg game...haha (aku mmg sewel)...ade lak time tuh sorang mamat yg lepak kat meja kami...aku blur je...aku tanyela "hani2, balak tira ke tuh?" (sbb tira je yg single stau aku) hani kate die xtau...dahtu hani lak tnye tira "tira, u kenal ke mamat tuh?" die kate xkenal pn...jakgi tira tanye aku lak "anne, ko kenal die ke?"...aku dah bantai gelak, kami dah cam tanye2 nih, masing2 dah blur...pe kes, pelik ngat...die duduk je kat stu, tgk kami men, kami layan budak tuh, kami bgambar...yg bestnye, bile kami duduk tuh, die bantai wat xtau je kami sembang sume kan, cam join kami lak...aku nak tnye gakle, muke cam familiar, tp xigtla aku celah mane aku nmpk, probably myspace i thought...mgkn die tunggu kami tegur, hmm, malula cik abg...(macamla die bace blog nih...hahaha) kami mmg xtegur org yg xtegur kami...next time be a gentleman la...(a word of advice for the guys... =D haha)...kot2 leh dapat no tel ke, hehe...tau la hani ngn tira nih hawtstuff...pandang je mlepasla...hahahaha...it was ofcoz another great outing! Thanx Girls!! Love ya loads!! (^_^)


Alia Wardina, Arisya Salsabila (anak2 agkt ku) Tok Mat (my uncle)

Friday, April 17, 2009

GileGileAn

Disuatu hari nang indah lg cerah...aku telah habes exam final...YIPPIIIIIIEEEEEEE...justeru ku telah kuar bersama hani bani n tira tiri ke pavi, tingok wayang, petang tuh jugak!! haha...xsabar2 dah nak enjoy...brape lame aku terperuk je kat umah nih study...hish, pening!! outing2...lepas ngok wayang, terus lepak kitaro sampai malam, sembang je la...huhahuha pai penat!

JANGAN TEGUR!
hmm...review sket la...cite nih...mmg kompem cite hantu! hahaha...bukan cite psycho ke ape ke! aku puas hati la (tix rm8 je) ngn jalan cite die, jalan cite yg mudah difahami n mmg dah well-known la...sound effect sumee, mmg ok2 la...cume aku nak gakla cdgnkn, kot2 ade yg terbace, lenkali wat cite hantu, babak2 terkejut tuh xpayah tunggu keadaan skililing sunyi dulu, cam dah jangka la, soo dah cam xbrape terkejut ngat! (pdhal jerit gak...amek kesempatan! haha) ALL N ALL MMG BEST!! super!! tp aku xleh trime ngat skrip, SKEMA gile! stress aku...plastic sgt! xleh nak feel la, ase cam mmg tgk wyg! lau tgk kite nk la ase seram sejuk cam kite dalam mubie tuh gak...ha! 1 lg, aku xpuas hati c julia tuh jd biru lak bile kena rasok, kopak2 muke, xreal lgsg la, tension aku tgk, bek2 nak takot, tgk muke je xjd dah! hmm...tapiiii, nak ku tekankan disini nadia tuh super duper la lakonan beliau! aku dah bese tgk org kena rasok, so aku rase, mmg REAL gile la!! time tuh mmg mremang! naik gile aku...ku rase wajarla beliau diberikan award sbijik...siyes nih!!! well...selebihnye, korang enjoy la sniri dipanggung! lau nak pn beli cd, ORI yoo!! kite belia xleh sokong cetak ompak!! kite la kena majukan seni serta menjana ekonomi negara kite!! my patriotisme kicking in! haha! yeah!!

Sesudah movie janjalan la jap!

Tira Tiri Sovereign Records
Hani Bani Sovereign Records

Pegun
mereka ter"Pegun"



iPhone spishis terbaru! (Model = Adib Zahran from TDL Music)
Fairy On GlassAcoustic Band Showgele punye teliti la die, sampai pakai magnifying glass
Break dancers @ BB!!
Cantik je aku rase! (^_^)

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Growse!!

Dalam minggu nih je, dah 3 kali aku beli mknn ade ulat...2 kali ade maggot! 1 kat ampg, resto ape tah, aku xigt n xde gmbr, xbwk kamera...1 kat kedai depan greenwood nih...skali lg dah ade cockroach lak, pun kat depan greenwood nih...hadoi...tensionnye aku...bodoh sgt dorang nih, xreti jage kebersihan tp nak gak bukak kedai mkn! what the f**k!!! s**l tol!!! aku g gitau die, leh die gelak2 je tukar baru! hish, balik aku buang je, xlalu nak mkn...nak kurang aja xsampai hati...skali aku repot baru tau!! lau xkerana rumah ngah renovate, brabuk, selerak, xdenye nak g beli mknn...bek aku msk je...mls2 aku pn aku msk bersih lg pd dorang!! heih...sabojela!!


Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Baby Bash


sing the happy happy happy happy happy happy song...
sing the happy happy happy happy happy happy song...
sing the happy happy happy happy happy happy song...
sing the happy happy happy happy happy happy song...

that my friends was the lyrics of the happy song in the toon, Rugrats! It used to be my favourite toon, wouldn't miss it for the world...i could cry if my mum or dad changed the channel...but normally they wont...coz my mum loves it too...the babies are soo curious about everything that they end up going thru such mischievious adventures...imagination running wild...i just love chuckie, the ever so-scared-of-everything chuckie...haha...how i miss those days when u get a way with anything...(time kecik2 la)...parents just let u roam free around the house, and to u, the house is just so big&full of excitement...

nowadays, being cooped up in the house can get soo boring...y cant we still hav the same imagination we used to hav?? y cant we still see the lil things in life as fun filled as they used to be?? is it really true when they say, growing up is growing old?? how do we prevail?? to me, its when i watch these type of toons that reminds me of who i used to be and what a blast i had...growing old is just growing to be more mature, it doesnt mean u should forget ur childhood...u can still be u! u just hav to remember how to... (^_^)

Monday, April 6, 2009

Artsy Shmartsies

hey2...yesterday me n my bestie syah went to take a look at whats goin on in capSquare, which im sure u guys know about...the KL Design Week ofcoz...went there to cool my aching head of the sickening site of books after a paper of my finals...it was cool, loads of artsy shmartsy people showing of their own interpretation of art...loads of pics to be taken, it was totally a unique sight...but im not much of and artsy pants, but i am a fan...the thought of me being able to see things in a piece and interpret in my on way gives me pleasure...i dont hav to see what others see, just hav to try to see that it was art, as subjective as it is, its beauty lies not in just my eyes, but it also lies in the eyes of anyone who sees it, given that they try to make something of it, create a story, a caption, a phrase, absolutely anything that suits u...n NOone can say ur wrong, not even the person who created it...they hav to accept that what they did is to be seen n interpreted by others in any way they can, so its a succcess when people interpret it the same way u did, but it most definitely isnt a failure if they dont...its what u want it to be...and that is the very beauty of it...now im talking as if im miss know-it-all...haha! im NOT! its just my opinion, my view on things...coz to me, my views and opinions definitely matters!!







nice quote




one of my fren's business...ourhappinessclothing.blogspot.com









Pixel Art (i like!!)






The Hexa Project

Lamps made out of bottles, papers n stuff







Love these wall decorations

Dull home?


bring an area to life with these stickers




Beautiful Fashionistas



KeyBox

warships

paper art


This house is beautiful n the detail is stunning













Apple Ringo Tree


they're soo cute






I was amazed with what he was doing


Literally a "paper bag"


Literally a "plastic bag"



Literally a "box of magazines"


Important quotes!!